Depression

No, not me.  I do not think I am depressed by any stretch of the imagination.  I do internalize what I am feeling and churn out stuff like this.  I maybe bummed by the situation but I am not depressed.  My mother is.  It seems that she was suffering depression for quite a while and I didnt even know it.  Now that my brother and his wife said that my mother was suffering from depression, I am kicking myself for not noticing this.  The thing is she is not even suffering from depression from her having cancer, though she is going through it right now.  My mother is a buddhist and when we were told she had lung cancer, she was like, "Oh well.  How much time do I have?"  She did not cry, but was strong in the face of death sentence that her lung cancer gave her.  Now that I think about it, her depression started back when Dewayne died.  She had always seemed fine to me, but arrrgh!  I should have known.  There was a lot of stuff that I could have done but didnt in those years.  Right now she is in the lying in bed and not doing anything.  I have tried to get her to go out with me to go for a walk or out shopping or something to get her active.  All I can do right now is just wait for her to drag herself up and out of her slump, and failing that, there is anti-depressants that we are going to look into at her next doctor's appointment.

Fuck you cancer!